Tuesday, March 19, 2013
I Have Mommy Guilt
Baby # 2 isn't even born yet and I already have major mommy guilt.
These feelings of guilt started right around the three month mark when I realized I hadn't even opened up a baby book. You know the books that tell you at week 12 your baby is the size of a marshmallow. When I thought back to my pregnancy with Little Bear I read that book weekly like it was the bible of my pregnancy.
The same goes for a pregnancy journal I kept with Little Bear. I am so all over the place for baby #2 though I do have some bump updated on the blog that could count I guess.
So I totally feel that baby # 2 is getting the shaft, but at the same time I have mommy guilt that I am just screwing up Little Bear's life too.
When this baby comes it is going to be a huge wake up call for Little Bear that he is not the only one i need to take care of. There will have to be waiting his turn and dealing with things like his brother needing to be fed before we can play etc. He is so used to being the center of our world and I know this adjustment is going to be hard on him. He is such a sensitive little bear and a total mama's boy.
Am I blowing this up in my head to be a bigger deal than it really is? Probably. In the end, I know that Little Bear will survive. I know that Tommy and I will survive the jump from one kid to two kiddies and life will go on , but for now I worry and have feelings of guilt. It's all part of being a mama. Pin It Now!