My friend Dara from Not in Jersey has been doing a prompt each day to help you blog about your family history. I plan on participating a couple of times over the next few weeks (basically if I can get my butt in gear).
Dara's topic on Monday was about religion and she shared her religion and family history. I have always wondered if I would discuss religion on my blog.
So to give you some background both Tommy and I were raised Catholic. Our parents, grandparents and great grandparents are/were Catholic. Almost everyone that I went to school with was Catholic. Tommy and I went to a Catholic college. We got married in my church and baptized both boys there. Catholicism is all I have known.
Lately, I am struggling with my faith. I am Christian. I believe whole hardheartedly in God and Jesus, but I don't know that I identify with the Catholic Church. I don't feel connected.
How can a priest make the gospel relevant to me? He doesn't have a spouse, children every day worries about money. It's hard for someone to preach how I should live when they haven't experienced these things. I don't think the Church explain God in the way that I think he is. There is a lot of guilt with the Catholic Church for not living up to God's standards. Instead of growing up thinking God is this wonderful being who loves me no matter what I grew up in fear of him.
That is something I don't want for my children. I do want them to have a relationship with God, but I don't know if I want that to be in the Catholic Church. I think it would be a huge step to get out of our comfort zone and seek out a new religion, but I know that Tommy and I aren't ready to make any commitments. We are still working through our thoughts and in the meantime I teach Little Bear about a loving God who is amazing.
So my family history is we are Catholics, but my family's future is not determined.
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